With therapy, I’m to talk about much of my past, or traumas, or whatever anyone likes to call it. Journaling is supposed to be a way to get things out. The problem is that I don’t like to talk about things and would rather keep all that stuff in the dark, dusty part of my brain. Apparently, that is bad for you. Although I never know how to begin to talk about things. How does one start talking? I have watched many extroverts in how they begin their conversations. As it is very natural to them, for when I try […]
I have a hard time remembering things. This is a bit different and it’s frustrating. I can remember many things from years ago. My short-term memory seems to have gotten worse. What’s crazy is that I used to have a photographic memory. I was able to picture things in my head. Now? Not so much. I can see hazy things, colors, sometimes it would just be black. I know what something would look like, say my car or one of my cats. Though I can’t picture them in my head. When someone says to imagine a beach, there is nothing […]
I should write down blog post ideas. I will have an idea during the day and forget them later when I’m at my computer. My ears have been hurting all day because of my ear infection. That and my coughing makes it a little hard to focus. Heading to the store now. Yes, it’s 9pm. Maybe I can start thinking of things to write about.
First post of the new year. Now I need to remember to write 2018. I should have that down by July. I think Mother Nature forgot about us for winter. Somehow she is mad at the East coast for all the snow she has been dumping over there. It was in the 50’s here today. No snow in the forecast for us. This weekend Alexis has hockey in Pueblo, CO. With our Christmas break I feel slow in getting back to our normal routine. It’s crazy that it’s 2018. This means that my little Karissa turns 18 this year. It […]
I would think that with the amount of stuff going through my head every day that writing it all down should be easy. For some reason, what it’s in my head does not translate on paper very well. I am meaning to write more on paper also. Mostly because I’m to log my Ptsd and Cyclothymic symptoms and try to separate the symptoms and triggers. It is a bit overwhelming, but I’m trying to come up with a better-organized system for next year. I almost always try new ways to get me to do things, remember things, not become overwhelmed […]
My head has been so awful these past few days. My head just wants to play every bad thought and memory. Intrusively so. It’s hard to keep my sanity when my anxiety is so high. Sensory overload. I hope tomorrow is better. I do have a therapy appointment tomorrow. Sometimes I think with the therapy appointments, they do bring many things up to the surface, which makes my days difficult. I was shooting hockey pucks with Tom yesterday. I had to use Lexi’s left-handed stick cause it just felt more comfortable for me. I’m right-handed and so was Kevin. Both my […]