Panic attack

I dropped off Karissa at school and stopped at Starbucks to study my Python. My anxiety is so high. I’m not sure I can stay here much longer to study. I’m trying to focus. Trying to focus on slowing down my breathing. I’m safe. I know I’m safe but my brain doesn’t want to believe me. I ordered a Jade Citrus hot tea with honey and a cinnamon-raisin bagel. It is helping my stomach, now if my breathing would slow and my focus would just concentrate on coding. Hearing aids are off. Headphones on and some nice, quiet instrumental music […]

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Always check your laptop’s battery level

My laptop is dead. I forgot the last place I was using my laptop was at the rink that didn’t have a free outlet so it died. I’m again at a place with no outlet. Oh well. I will write on my phone. I guess ‘type’ is more the word I’m looking for. I’m at the Lovelace Hospital. I had to see my Hematologist for my anemia. I need to take an iron tablet on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays. I’m sitting in the cafeteria waiting for my ride. I told Tom that I didn’t feel like driving today so I […]

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Stabilizing my mood

My therapist’s appointment is in this tiny town, smaller than the one I live in. Drove to the edge of town… took about a minute or two. I stopped by this place called Mama Bears and had lunch. Three tacos and a coke for $5. I couldn’t really beat that. Of course, I wasn’t able to eat my third taco so I asked for a to-go box. This place is busier than I’d expect in such a small town. Everyone knows everyone here. It’s a very family-ish feeling. It brings me back to when I lived in Babenhausen Kaserne in […]

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Mother dearest

I’m not sure where to start. Honestly, I’d rather lie in bed and sleep but it’s not good to get lost in my head. I guess to start… I’m looking to find out how to obtain my birth certificate. My dad was in the Navy and I was born in the Philippines. So I’m not sure how to get my birth certificate. I called my uncle to help me out, so he called my mom. My mom told him that she has my birth certificate and I should just call her. My uncle gave me her number, which I wanted […]

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Organized Chaos

I write so little that I believe every time I write, it’s randomness. My hands hurt a bit today, but I still want to write. I have been trying to stay on top of my schedule and todo list and journal. I’m doing alright. Still feel a bit overwhelmed. I have started to try to organize my things. I do love organizing. It’s the time that I need to find to do the organizing. I was thinking of doing the KonMari of cleaning. I think that may be possible. I’m not so sure about my clothes though. I mean, I […]

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Opinions, 80s music and hockey

There needs to be a better WordPress app, typing up a post via browser is a bit of an annoyance. I’m sitting in McDonald’s having a Coke, cause seriously, my stomach doesn’t care for anything else at McDonald’s. Shame though, I do like some of its food. I’m waiting for Chris to get done with his pickup hockey. Also watching Tom debate stuff on Facebook. I can’t do that. I can’t debate things. I have my opinions, yes, but they are better left in my head. See, my head can express my thoughts, but the travel from my head to […]

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