Yes, I’m ok. I think…

Why do scones tend to be dry? Is this a thing? Why is this a thing? Yesterday’s mail included the high schoolers’ date and time they are to get their schedule. I’m excited for them. I also feel a bit more overwhelmed that school is about to start again. Not that this summer has been very relaxing. Haha. So they will have their schedules at the end of this month. Karissa has her college schedule for the Fall semester. Karissa’s back to school things are taken care of by her financial aid and I think I’ve already spent enough money […]

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From not feeling the pain of my ear drops in my ears. From not remembering much of anything between 12:15 till now. I was in the library. Now I’m sitting at a table in front of the library eating yogurt. I’m in bit of a daze. I don’t remember buying the yogurt, but I had to.. Cause I have the end result of eating it. I remember still shots of being in the cafe, still shots of color which I suppose were people, still shots of watching myself walk around and then sitting at this table. I don’t see myself […]

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Psychologically confusing

My allergies are so bad right now. I forgot to bring eye drops but that’s alright. I have been to Karissa’s college for a bit. We live about 45 minutes away. So I like to save gas and not drive so much, given the fact that driving isn’t my favorite activity. So I have been studying Linux at the library while she is in class. My anxiety has not given me the chance to be completely comfortable there at their library. Although I do love the atmosphere there. The sentiment I have with Karissa is if she needs me, text […]

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Anxiety

My therapist said to try writing when I’m having anxiety. So, here I am. There are different types of anxiety I get. Well, more like different symptoms of anxiety… some are easier to deal with than others. The shortness of breath and me “taking over my breathing” is the hardest. Mostly because I feel lightheaded and I just want this feeling of anxiety to stop. More than anything, just for it to stop. What am I having anxiety about? Not too sure. Which is why I’m writing. I do have an idea. Or a few ideas. So let’s put that […]

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Today has been a mentally hard day.

Today has been a rough day, mentally. Even though I try hard not to read the news, with the internet it’s hard not to know what is going on in the world. Suicides happening, the #metoo movement has brought abusive relationships to light. It all brings many things to surface that I try hard to keep buried. It is scary how easy it is to be gaslighted or emotionally torn down. This is not a secluded subject. It is more common than we like to think. This is also not something that is isolated to one group. This happens to […]

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We continue again…

I keep imagining those little clips after a tv show had a cliffhanger. “Last week on _____.” The end of 2008 I wanted to start school again. My dad had a Master’s degree and dammit, I wanted one too. I fought hard to convince Mike that I can go to school, go to work, and focus on him. As I look back, he never had concern if I could take care of my girls at the same time. I received my Bachelor’s in Computer Science and my Master’s in Computer Networking. For every time that I needed to do homework, […]

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