The Primitive Brain

In basic terms, Post-Traumatic_Stress Disorder or PTSD is the brain’s normal reaction to extreme trauma. I’ve had some tell me in the past to not listen to my demons. Those voices that sometimes sound very tempting to follow. See, those demons were often the only ones comforting me when no one else was around. As I got older I began to see the Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde of these voices. These demons helped me to abandon myself when I couldn’t take things any longer. They were like those screwed up friends that had your back when you needed them. […]

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Where do I start in my writing…

With therapy, I’m to talk about much of my past, or traumas, or whatever anyone likes to call it. Journaling is supposed to be a way to get things out. The problem is that I don’t like to talk about things and would rather keep all that stuff in the dark, dusty part of my brain. Apparently, that is bad for you. Although I never know how to begin to talk about things. How does one start talking? I have watched many extroverts in how they begin their conversations. As it is very natural to them, for when I try […]

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Undiscerning mind

I’m going to try to write. Forgive my perplexity. My thoughts aren’t exactly clear. My therapist wants me to start talking more about my past in the sense of getting it out in the open. I block so much stuff out that I have actually do it without any realization on my part. I guess I’m to work out and understand more about how I am feeling about things. Or to get some anger out. I know what I’m to do, though I can’t clearly think of what it is. To put it in words is taxing. I’m going to […]

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Getting through my anxieties

Therapy was good today. We talked about relaxation techniques for my anxiety. She worried about my anxiety turning into the start of OCD. Which, yes, I know I have a tendency to sometimes though I do catch myself. For the most part. I was able to get to my therapy early so I was sitting in my car for a bit. I kept hearing things around my car, there wasn’t anyone around but I kept hearing things. I was fearing that something or someone was by my car, so I got out and went inside the building to feel safer. […]

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Why did you stop wearing makeup?

I stopped wearing the little makeup I was already wearing years ago. About ten years ago. I didn’t want to stop wearing it. Although I’m not that great at applying it, I love makeup. I love all things beauty. Especially skin care since my skin is as dry as the Sahara Desert. I try not to be shy about my interests, but that is the way it is. I didn’t stop wearing makeup because I was shy. I was asked kind of recently on why I stopped wearing makeup. As in I just wash my face, moisturize and slap on […]

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Managing nightmares

I have been out of my anti-nightmare medication for over two weeks now. I need to wait till I see my psychiatrist tomorrow to get more. Since I’m still in the process of seeing what works for me and my doctor wasn’t the original person who prescribed the medication, I couldn’t have it refilled. I don’t remember what the medication is called. I suppose I can simply head to the bedroom to look, but that requires me to move. At the moment I’m not feeling very energetic. Anywho, this medication keeps me from having nightmares. My PTSD has been in […]

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