Dissociating..

Sometime I’d like to post those humorous type posts where I can be sarcastic and funny. Maybe later when I’m not so exhausted. I’m emotionally exhausted. Having to be around so many people this last weekend and week takes a lot out of me. I’m not sure completely why, though last weekend was a bit stressful. I dissociated a few times. It gets frustrating when I find that I have dissociated because I’m trying to be more aware of it before it happens. To recognize the symptoms and feelings so I can do my grounding techniques to keep my mind […]

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Down memory lane…

I have a hard time remembering things. This is a bit different and it’s frustrating. I can remember many things from years ago. My short-term memory seems to have gotten worse. What’s crazy is that I used to have a photographic memory. I was able to picture things in my head. Now? Not so much. I can see hazy things, colors, sometimes it would just be black. I know what something would look like, say my car or one of my cats. Though I can’t picture them in my head. When someone says to imagine a beach, there is nothing […]

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On the road to organization.. again

I would think that with the amount of stuff going through my head every day that writing it all down should be easy. For some reason, what it’s in my head does not translate on paper very well. I am meaning to write more on paper also. Mostly because I’m to log my Ptsd and Cyclothymic symptoms and try to separate the symptoms and triggers. It is a bit overwhelming, but I’m trying to come up with a better-organized system for next year. I almost always try new ways to get me to do things, remember things, not become overwhelmed […]

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Staying focused..

I haven’t been doing well with writing consistently. Focusing and getting things done is much harder than it should be. I have an appointment later this month with psychiatric medicine. I’m hoping it will help with my Cyclothymia. The therapist gave me a log that I have to rate my symptoms. The crazy thing about this is that there is one box for each symptom per day. It doesn’t work that way. I can be happy and energetic one hour and the next I’ll be sitting on my bed zoning out and not being able to get myself to get […]

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Taco Tuesday

It just occurred to me that we had tacos on Taco Tuesday. I need a solid state drive. My computer takes a bit to load from startup. It reminds me of dial-up internet. When you started the connection and left the room to make a sandwich, then go to the bathroom, then maybe danced around the room for a bit until your internet was connected. That’s my computer right now. I look over at Tommy’s computer, the just-upgraded computer with his solid state drive and that computer¬†would be up and running before I can even think of leaving the room […]

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Remember the last time you updated your site? Good times..

That’s Tom’s way of saying that I have not written in a bit. I have the worst writer’s block ever. I don’t have a fear of writing. I may have a fear of not writing well. There may be a quote about that somewhere. My head is so fuzzy at times that it’s hard to get a good coherent thought out there. I studied today for a bit. My doctor has told me to associate many of the tidbits that I need to memorize to something familiar. I’m finding that to be much more work. So much that I disassociated […]

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