Paranoia

I keep thinking that I should write more. That I will write more. Here’s to attempt number.. I lost count. My paranoia is starting to get to me, making it hard to study. From studying my A+ certification I’m not sure if I’m learning more or finding out that I don’t know as much about computers as I thought. My paranoia works several ways: The feeling those others are watching me. (This is me right now) The feeling that I need to be attending to others’ needs or that I’m not doing what I’m supposed to be doing, thus about […]

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Sick again..

I have received everything I need to do my taxes. The beauty of this is that this time whatever I get back from taxes is mine. Just mine. It’s not for anyone else to buy any speakers, cars or televisions. Not for anyone to spend just for the sake of spending money. I can put the money away and save it. No one upset at me because I’m not spending my money on them. As crazy as it may seem, just having some control back, whether small or big, has been a goal for years of wanting to get out […]

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Hmmm

I need to stop being depressed and do my paper. Considering I won’t have much time for working on it this week, I should get to it. The sun is gone. Somewhere behind the clouds. It is a little chilly. Not so bad since it has been so cold lately. Anxiety. My coping mechanisms haven’t been working too well lately. I have looked up anxiety. There is so much.. o Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia and Social Anxiety Disorder o Generalized Anxiety Disorder o Phobic Disorder o Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder (OCD) o Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) I start to think my coping mechanisms […]

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