I’m feeling a little paralyzed by anxiety today. I can’t quite pinpoint why, it’s just there. I’m trying to study, but I keep rereading the same first sentence over and over again. At this point, I probably have it memorized… or maybe not. Anxiety tends to fog my memory. Not that my memory is amazing to begin with, except when it comes to the bad stuff. That, unfortunately, sticks. The kind that feeds into PTSD and keeps the anxiety cycle going.
I took my as-needed anxiety medication, so I’m hoping it kicks in soon.
This morning started off well. I showered, went through my morning routine, and had my coffee. We’re almost out of coffee pods, so I made it with the French press instead. I like the routine of using the French press. It’s fun.
The dogs are doing well. Everest is actually staying in the yard today, which is a relief. I’ve been checking on her every so often just to be sure she’s still there. Every 20 minutes, I get up to check on her. I just get so paranoid.
Right now, I’m wrapped up in a blanket because I’m cold. I don’t want to turn on the heater since I know this office will warm up soon. It’s already 75 degrees outside, so it won’t take long. I still haven’t taken my cough medicine yet. Tommy said I should take it, but I’ve been putting it off. I really hate that stuff. It tastes so bad.
I’ve been studying all day, and I can feel that pull to step away and do something else for a bit. There are clothes I should probably put away… but honestly, that can wait until tomorrow. Sandy has reclaimed her spot on my desk, she slept for hours, and I did enjoy the extra space, but I can’t deny I like having her nearby, too. I think I’m going to make myself some matcha tea and take a small break. I’m not sure what this weekend will look like yet, but I’m really hoping we can get the girls’ and Chris’s passports taken care of.
Alright, back to studying. I made myself some matcha tea and checked on the dogs; they’re still doing well. My anxiety has eased, which feels good. Oh, my UPS wasn’t on this morning. I wonder if we had a power glitch last night. It took a while for my computer to turn on. I wonder if it’s the case itself that is the problem. I don’t think it’s my computer that is having the problem turning on. I think the power button is having a problem turning on my computer.
We still need to go to Karissa’s old school to the financial aid office to get a scholarship transfer form. Maybe we can do that next Friday after the parole hearing. Maybe. I just don’t know when we can get that girl to the city. Speaking of the parole hearing, I should get a link to participate in the hearing soon. My computer keeps reminding me to get Windows 11. I don’t think my computer can handle Windows 11. I think I need a few new parts before that could happen. Oh, I probably should get back to a little more studying.
We put in the ACs in the office and the girls’ room yesterday. It was just getting too hot in the rooms. Watch as the weather cools down now. Heh…
