I finished making the roast, and it’s finally in the oven. Actually, I made two roasts, so both of them are cooking now. They should be done around 5:00. Around 4:00, I’ll start making the mashed potatoes, so everything comes together around the same time. The house is going to smell good soon once the roasts start cooking.

I’m not really sure what else I want to do today. The strange thing is that I do have things I need to get done. I need to start laundry, study, and eat lunch. But I just don’t feel like doing anything today. I feel okay overall. Not sick, not upset, not even particularly tired, just slow. Kind of like my body decided to switch itself into low-power mode. I don’t really have energy, but I can’t exactly call it exhaustion either.

I haven’t even had my second cup of coffee yet today. I’m out of Splenda, though, so I had to improvise. We do have sugar-free brown sugar, so that’s what I’m using instead. I guess it works. Heh, saying sugar-free sugar sounds funny.

I think I’ll start with lunch first and then make coffee afterward.

Okay, lunch has been eaten, coffee has been made, and I also got the laundry started and put it into the washer. I’m still feeling low on energy, though. It makes me wonder how much sleep I actually got last night. My watch died, so it didn’t track anything, which feels weird because I’ve gotten so used to checking it. But thinking back to when I fell asleep and when I woke up, I think I got close to seven hours of sleep. That’s actually really good for me. I usually fall somewhere around five and a half to six hours, so seven hours is almost a luxury. This past weekend, I definitely didn’t get my usual eight hours either.

Friday, Tommy had the day off. He was supposed to have therapy, but his therapist somehow had the wrong day open on his calendar and never showed up for the appointment, so he ended up missing therapy entirely. After that, we went to the store and picked up a few things for dinner and breakfast. We came home, ate brunch, and then I took a nap. I wanted to rest because Tommy was planning to go out later that night to take pictures.

When I woke up, I had a coffee, and after dinner Tommy and I loaded up his camera gear and headed out. We drove about an hour east, out into the middle of nowhere, so he could photograph the Milky Way. He spent a long time taking pictures of the night sky. It was actually a really nice night, not cold at all. The thing I remember most was how quiet everything felt. I sat there thinking how still and silent it was, even with my hearing aids in. Later, Tommy told me there were cows mooing nearby the whole time. Apparently, it wasn’t silent at all. I just never heard them. We didn’t get home until around 3:00 a.m.

Saturday, I slept in and woke up around noon. We mostly spent the day resting and playing on our computers, which felt nice after being out so late.

Sunday, we went over to our friend’s house to talk more about our trip in July. Alexis came with us, too, because she and Karissa are coming along, and Alexis wanted details about everything. She really doesn’t like feeling out of the loop. We also spent some time in the pool, played a few games, and later went to Tommy’s hockey game. Alexis had fun, and I always like seeing that because it’s nice when she’s enjoying herself and having a good time. Her moods are regulated, so seeing her happy is always good. Seeing both of my girls happy makes me happy.

Right now, I’m about to go check on the roasts and move the laundry over to the dryer. Hopefully, somewhere along the way today, my energy decides to show up too.

The kids are cleaning up their mess in the kitchen right now. I told them they have until four o’clock to finish because that’s when I need to start making the mashed potatoes. I still have to cut up the potatoes, then put them in a pot of water to boil for about an hour before I can actually mash them and finish everything up.

I studied for a bit earlier, although my attention span today has not been very good. Then again, I’m not always convinced my attention span is good in general. Today just feels harder than usual. I can feel myself drifting and struggling to hold onto my focus. I’ll sit down intending to pay attention, and then my mind starts wandering somewhere else before I even realize it. It’s frustrating because I want to get things done, but it feels like my brain is making me work harder for it.

When four o’clock comes around, I’m also going to make myself some tea. I think it might help give me a little boost of energy, or at least help me feel a bit more settled. Sometimes even just the ritual of making tea helps. There’s something nice about taking a few minutes to make a warm drink and slow down for a moment. Of course, I do the same with coffee. Having the routine is nice. It grounds me.

My computer is currently sitting behind the couch in the living room. I’m not entirely sure why it ended up out there, but that’s where it has been for now. I’m thinking that if I have some time today, I should vacuum the floor where my computer was sitting since it has collected some dust and debris. My computer needs to be dusted, too. I also need to shred the stack of mail sitting on my desk. I’ve been meaning to take care of that and should probably get it done soon. Maybe I can work on it while the potatoes are softening in the boiling water.