My watch tells me to stand up every hour if I haven’t done so. Now I’m obsessed with standing and moving around that sitting still is hard to do. Not that it has ever been easy to do. I haven’t typed here in so long and that is how I start out my post. /sigh

Oh, I think my bipolar is in mania right now. It certainly feels that way since my head feels like it’s in a thought-conga-line and I’m having trouble slowing it down to put a cohesive thought together. I feel like going for a walk but I need to study. Whoa, it’s partly cloudy outside. Beautiful weather. Ok, it’s going to be in the 100s today so it isn’t that beautiful.

My ADHD is making it hard for me to focus on studying today. I keep thinking of what I need to do tomorrow. I should just write it down. I wish I had paper. This said paper would be grand right now. Grammarly really hated that sentence. In fact, it’s hating this whole post so far. Oh, I’m thinking of making a new calendar for Google for events that happen repeatedly. Yes, I couldn’t think of the word for repetition. I’m not sure how to make a new Google calendar but I will figure that out when I finally sit and make one.

This library has Harry Potter vibes. I wonder if you can still read the books for free on Kindle? I haven’t finished the last two books. Though I know what happens cause it’s been over-talked about to the point where I don’t need to read them. But I want to read them. Oh, I have an EDMR appointment tomorrow. She has inadvertently become my therapist. It’s confusing to even think about. Ok, my other therapist has told me that I only need one therapist at a time and she felt that I need more care for my trauma so my EDMR therapist has become my actual therapist and I can go back to my old therapist if I need to. And my new therapist is my old therapist’s boss. I just found that out in my last session last month(?) with my old therapist. We had a whole, kind of uncomfortable, discussion on how she didn’t want me to feel as if I’m being tossed aside since this all happened so suddenly. I can’t say that I felt that way but I didn’t want to be rude and say that I hadn’t noticed much and just went with the flow of things.

My head is just rambling. This post makes no sense. I do want to eat lunch soon since I eat breakfast at 5:30 am and I’m quite hungry at the moment. My head needs to stop so I can go study. Ok, so appointments need to be made tomorrow. And I have an appointment. So that is Thursday. Friday I have a phone appointment. And today is a clear schedule.

How does a tech guy drink coffee? He installs Java! 🙂 Ok, I’m going to eat and study. I’m tired of looking at Grammarly’s sad face at the bottom of the page. I’m sorry for the rambling. I just needed to deal with my head for a moment.