The situation with getting a new therapist both annoys me and intrigues me. On one hand, there’s something appealing about the idea of working with someone new. A different therapist brings a different perspective, different questions, and a different way of approaching problems. Sometimes, a fresh set of eyes can notice patterns or connections that have been overlooked before. The thought of that possibility is exciting and makes me curious about what the experience might be like.

On the other hand, the idea of starting over feels daunting. Building trust with a therapist takes time, and so does telling the story of your life. Having to explain your history, your struggles, and your traumas all over again can feel exhausting. It’s not just a matter of recounting events; it means revisiting experiences that may already be difficult to talk about. Part of me wonders if I really want to open those doors again for someone who doesn’t know me yet.

I find myself caught between those two feelings. I like the idea of a new therapist and the possibility that a different approach could be helpful. At the same time, I dread the emotional effort involved in bringing a new person up to speed and deciding how much of my story to share. Maybe that’s why I feel both interested and resistant at the same time. The opportunity for something new is appealing, but the process of getting there feels overwhelming.

I wonder how long it will take before I’m assigned a new therapist. Part of me feels like it could be quite a while. I don’t really know for sure, but I have the impression that the clinic I go to is pretty full right now. From what my previous therapist told me, they’ve also been cutting staff hours, which probably doesn’t help. Because of that, I’m expecting the wait might be longer than I’d like. Still, at least I’m on the list, and that’s something. There’s not much I can do except be patient and see what happens.

Maybe I can talk to my provider and see if there are any other therapists I can see. It’s good to have more options.

In the meantime, I’ve been thinking about how helpful it can be to talk things out, even when it feels overwhelming. Sometimes putting thoughts into words makes everything feel more real, and that can be uncomfortable. At the same time, keeping everything bottled up doesn’t usually make things any easier. I suppose there’s a balance somewhere between allowing myself to process what I’m feeling and not getting completely consumed by it.

It’s raining outside today. I didn’t even notice the weather had changed until Karissa came in and told me she was bringing Merlin inside. The rain must have started gradually because I had been focused on other things and hadn’t looked outside. Right now, I have Everest with me in the office. We’re keeping the dogs separated while they’re indoors. Having two very energetic dogs in the house at the same time can be a challenge. They both have so much energy, and things can get chaotic pretty quickly if they’re together for too long. Separating them helps keep the peace, even if it requires a little extra coordination.

Tommy is working this weekend because he has a project at work that needs to be finished. It sounds like he has a lot on his plate right now, but in a few weeks, he’ll finally get a break. Apparently, he has some time off that he needs to use, so he’ll be taking three days off from work. Combined with the weekend, that gives him five days in a row to focus on other things. One of the projects he wants to tackle is my desk, which has me excited. I’ve been looking forward to getting it done, and it will be nice to have a dedicated workspace that feels complete. Before that can happen, though, we need to clean out the garage. That’s probably the biggest hurdle standing in the way right now. I’m hoping we can get through that project quickly so we can move on to the desk while Tommy has the time off.

I’ve been doing more quizzes as part of my studying and trying to stay focused, though that’s been a bit challenging today. I’m not entirely sure why my concentration is off. Maybe it’s because it’s Friday and the weekend is so close that my mind is already starting to shift into relaxation mode.

This weekend looks fairly busy, but in a good way. I’m planning to take it easy tomorrow and use the day to rest. Then on Sunday, Kel and I are taking the girls out so they can pick up a few things they need for the trip. They also both have a hearing aid appointment at Costco at noon that day. On Saturday evening, we’re meeting some friends for dinner at our local pizza place, which should be nice.

For now, I think I’m going to make myself a cup of tea and spend some time reading before everyone gets home.